sweatshirt

i stare into my phone

and look over blonde hair

green eyes

a shirt that’s too big

a running stride

images from the past

thinking

i hope there will be more

i hope that this is not the end

i hope that all this pain

will be worth something

i can’t text and i can’t call

we agreed space would be good

if that’s the case

then tell me why

i’m falling asleep

with your sweatshirt

between my legs


2/7/22

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